Nancy! Meanwhile yes un-erasably I will keep Thee 'top of mind'-- praying I also do not do come too-to-more 'discomfort' to the breach 'stalking' as you may deem it... but I am scared-as-hell about stalking you and will do my utmost to avoid that 'charge.'

 This is so-clearly true: I cannot given my acquaintance of you, bipolar hiker camper, 'wildflower,' rid you from my consciouseness, cannot 'shake' you as the saying goes. Some stubborn elements that for you may be lethally-discomforting-- let's say hope and the sense-maybe-possibility-- keep me thinking of you... In point of fact, I know that from the first moment of this silence/'ghosting' anger has never been how my thoughts of you occur: you stay 'special' and this in all seems best to mean let-you-go the way you have chosen... I think this will not be 'stalking' if I violate especially by over-messaging my orientation toward you...

I want you to always be loved... Maybe you are getting love communally at 959 Imperial Point Drive, Ballwin/Manchester MO; that seems OK and utterly plausible. I must have the dead-reckoning that perhaps I as jejeune phone buddy was to you a relation that 'was not going anywhere,' and all-along let's hope you had loves the-better for massage and bedding ;-)

OK as I say so often... Yet my love is not of that jealous-order, the usual possessive kind women and cis-men have; I fail to see how my loving you as 'special' is a lie at all OR as a feeling you can reciprocate in kind.

I think, really, that there will-- so sadly-- an end of my keeping-heart for you when another love-- let's hope 'special' too-- 'comes along' as they say. Meanwhile yes un-erasably I will keep Thee 'top of mind'-- praying I also do not do come too more 'discomfort' to the breach 'stalking' as you may deem it... but I am scared-as-hell about stalking you and will do my utmost to avoid that 'charge.'