It certainly has reached a point, NHz, where my sense of courtesy/respect for you demands that my frequent (despite my best intentions not to bother you) messaging by sheer force of my will is diminishing...

 I am trying... The surprise element of your G'byeColdShoulderGhosting has departed, and I have never in this regard had a sense of anger for any of  'that'-- yet it certainly has reached a point, NHz, where my sense of courtesy/respect for you demands that my frequent (despite my best intentions not to bother you) messaging by sheer force of my will is diminishing... A 'perforcement' that almost goes against the very grain of my Being.

OK, I deem you GONE: I reckon too that it is counter productive-- for me-- to think of Thee as other than a fondest memory, who-- O so so so like many another 'flame' just 'up'n left,' and your reason for this zero-now compels a no-judgment with me.

You were-- I say anew-- so perfect to my interests... All that means at this point is that I LIKE U MORE IN THE END THAN YOU LIKED ME-- which only should get my utterly OK.

I am using stats to mete-off the inevitable 'weening' from you-- whose inception I never had doubts suggested great pain, in just about the tumultuous up.down.on.off.jumpy way I have struggled to 'let you go.' IFF I ' ' you no more frequently than in the separate-ness now till... [always 4ever I guess] that in 4-standard-deviations of 'separation twixt communications' may be that would provide an 'acceptable level' of 'speaking terms' as you had been essential awhile, still are essential to a point, and I [as from March 13, this year 2024] painfully nevertheless MOVE ON.

It would be predictable that by this moment you have other(s) telling ILY to you; that ALWAYS would have been OK-- and with emphasis comes my repitition that IT WOULD HAVE BEEN 100000000000% ALL ALONG IF WE WE WERE (SAY 'ARE') JUST PALS BUDDIES. While you have faulted me for having 'expectations' I am not aware of any-such but that we are FRIENDS ON SPEAKING-TERMS.

In soul I this instant adress you, Nancy Hunter z; the better part of me just wants you to restore that 'peace' which completely was not my motivation; PEACE... EVEN YOU MAY ADMIT THAT IFF MY MESSAGING 'DISTURBED YOUR PEACE,' THOUGH I STRUGGLE, I AM SLOWLY SILENCING MYSELF

OUCH!

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