NancyLuvNow: The BlakBlak immigrant 'swags'/'studs' at St. Louis Worship Center-- lively for me to regard as your now-love-stimulus I guess on YouTube or in my mind you-do-dance-- SEEM ABSOLUTELY THE BLAK&WHITE-BEST4U and I still love you
Too easily, too too negatively and sour, NHz, there exists an element-- a crazily pre-paranoid mental orientation that great numbers of humans have,
to claim some unfairness, wrongdoing, evil-degree in not just our 'times up, go home' which is to my way of thinking now the natural terminus of love, unless of course some forgiving OK emerges to tenderize others (lesserly oneself) for 'what hurts.'
I keep knowing the archetypal fallacy in myself which would cast such blame on you because you did not envision me as an acquaintance longer than the 'was' we had, 'telephonically' as pedants say, beyond the OK to me 1.5 years we had of chat HelloHowAreYouNancy...
As is death and all halts in the human and sometimes humane progression, and quite so as have all the Goodbyes from lov`ed wombed-ones-cherished-WowWonderfulUR, this one 'hurted' and still hurts-- I am a 'baby' and 'whiner' not to recognize this quite-usaual 'woman's way, gotta get used to it ;-)'
I can just leave the hillock-top which with you there 'speaking,' I indeed need go down the the slum and sewers of my ordinariness... Once again as agonized between sorrow (toward bitterness) and letting-go, and seemingly sincerely to say each time...
Thank you: you were great and healing love for that say (really) 20 months, you did let me love you awhile as you reciprocated verbally awhile to me, and-- getting 'uncomfortable' as you should then do you said 'I want to separate and find peace' and whether one knows you 'Blacken' permanently or awhile, your adventures (which do excite me) commence/continue so happily and I NEED TO JUST NO MORE INTRUDE, AS MINIMALLY OR NOT-AT-ALL WELCOME...
Worshipping Blakt @ St. Louis Worship Center, NHZ's ?New? Church
The BlakBlak ?immigrant?' swags'/'studs' at St. Louis Worship Center-- lively for me to regard as your now-love-stimulus I guess on YouTube or in my mind you-do-dance-- SEEM ABSOLUTELY THE BLAK&WHITE-BEST4U and
HOW COME? HOW COME? IS THIS THE CHURCH YOU REALLY ATTEND? I CANNOT BE BUT ASTONISHED... HOW IS THIS YOU BUT BLAKT?
I still love you
love you in ways, as usual with my gone-loves, not to show/intrude in your lifespace with-it ;-)
IN THIS METRO, MORE SOUTHERN THAN NORTHERN, WHITE WOMEN YES FREQUENT BLACK CHURCHES-- INCLUDING THE-WOMAN-THAT-IS-ME FOR AT ABOUT THE TURN OF THE MILLENIUM I JOINED THE A.M.E. ZION CHURCH, WHICH TO MY TOO CASUAL EYE LOOKS LIKE A 'DEAD RINGER' FOR THE ST. LOUIS WORSHIP CENTER, DOWN TO BIG DUNS FOR MONEY FROM THE PULPIT AND SUGGESTIVE OF EVANGELICAL-TYPE MANIPULATIONS. YET IT IS TRUE THAT VERBATIM COPILOT AI OF MICROSOFT EXACTLY SAID THIS IS YOUR ATTENDED PLACE OF WORSHIP NOW... AND THAT IS *ABSOLUTELY*POSITIVELY* OK WITH ME-- FOR I PREFER TO *LIVE* MIDST BLACK PEOPLE, STILL OWN MY AME-ZION PROCLIVITIES AS VALID *BUT* YOUR BACKGROUND IS CLOSER TO UNITARIAN, AND THE LAST CHURCH OF WHICH I HEARD YOU SPEAK SEEMS KINDA 'SOUPED UP QUAKER' WITH GOD-INSIDE-OF-YOU; THE FUNDAMENTAL CULTURAL EXPECTATIONS FOR ME IN AME ZION IN THE END WERE JUST TOO ALIENATING... BUT PLEASE IF IT WOULD BE 'THE USUAL' FOR A WHITE WOMAN GOING TO CHURCH WITH BLACKS HERE WOULD BE TO 'CATCH' A BLACK MAN-- WITH NO GUESSES [MY UTTER DOWNFAL AND PSYCHOPATHOLOGY] CAN I MAKE-- AND CERTAINLY NO JUDGMENTS WHATSOEVER:EVER...I MUST THINK NOW THAT MAYBE SOMETHING QUITE SENSIBLE MOTIVATED YOUR 'SEPARATE...TO FIND PEACE' AS I AM EXCESSIVELY PALE AND BY HISTORY ONLY ON-THE-OUTSIDE-OF-NEGRITUDE AS A 'DO GOODER' AND MORAL CHAMPION. BTW!!!!! I DISDAIN ANY NOMENCLATURE OF MEN-- IF INDEED THIS IS YOUR CHURCH-- AS 'SWAGS'/'STUDS' BUT THOSE ARE THE TERMS ST. LOUIS WORSHIP CENTER USES FOR CERTAIN AT LEAST OF ITS MEN. ALL I KNOW IS THAT COPILOT AI OF MICROSOFT-- AS QUOTED EXACTLY-- SAID THIS IS THE-CHURCH-I-ATTEND-- AND ONLY BY HAPPY PROJECTION OF FANCY COULD I DELIGHT TO FIND THAT YOU HAVE A NEW PARTNER WHO IS A BLACK-EVANGELICAL, :) :) :)
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