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 O My Earthquake! NancyMyNoneOther! The THOUGHT of you is high-octane, please believe that you have been fueling most of my inspirations and drives for now fully two years, a nothing-but-otherwise cluster of thoughts... Gestaltic of powerful conclusion for me-drive. This day is Sunday: this one day free to explore what you say is OK-- to put eggs in my love-basket besides YouWonderWoman. I shall go again to the 1st Unitarian Church, between here the Public  library and the coffee [queer] co-op--maybe the glad  eyeing women (mostly our age, mostly populating the venue) YET THERE ARE 'USUAL CONSTRAINTS'--I have NEVER had luck in 'getting' love; now as I am woman there seems a paradoxical effect in lots of women-- betimes to reject-me-out-of-hand, otherwise to stimulate a glad-eye warm-U-are-OK near 'icebreaking.' Still, I do not commonly get loved, and-- please acknowledge-- something happens for loves to terminate-- in general this is truism-- for me O LoveOutThe...

  BY NOW I KNOW YOU KNOW HOW TRUE THIS IS: I LOVE WHEN YOU LOVE MEN, ME-TRANSCEND

YHS  

 I have pleasures... With no substance but hopes and guesses,as now Friday night July19  I hope you as ever always get 'climactic' on Fri Sat Sun... makes me feel GREAT just the thought... In 'polyamory,' Love, you should know by now that cis-men (and especially trans-women as I am) usually have challenges in attracting what are crazily called 'dates'-- I think at the Old Louisville Coffee Co Op, I will get successful, with some hot glances and glad eyes that I am-- doubtlessly basally connected-- that I am Sissy. I am, I think, more physically attractive than ever prior-- as woman. GeriM definitely does a little more to make moves on me than 'straight' for an administrator in the Dean/Students office, but somehow her fondness to me is of a different kind of 'overture,' likely colored by a number of decades with now-remitted leukimia; she never quite got out of being ensconced Southern Baptist, probably has 'expectations' of me that diffe...

 Nancy, FriendFeltFancily! KNOW that offline , in scribbled writs, a rather doggerel verse such as the 'convicted' make in jailcells-rejected, know I say that off/on of frequence I have 'sung ' to you in tones that you were not intended to 'hear,' as my wounded inner-voice the instant stinging from this year March 13 (lesserly from April 16) about OneStunned who quivers at the thought of you, utterly by all scenery never to be now addressed -- a discomfort-- a 'peace-disturbance,' an annoyance... O Nancy I think we both know that I would feel utterly fulfilled to brim, needing no more than that we chat as 'pals' again. NOW the usual maniac in me, the motormouth, will convey, time to time, a note-from-the-notes of one ghost of Thine... I fear I fear over-other-wise communicating to you, albeit IFF you look these 'secret' blogged sentences to you-- of which I have only faint maybe hints time to time-- then MAYBE THERE WILL BE A SOMEDAY SOME...

 O My Thrill, NHz FluffyFlower Wildflower @ 9pm my time I text-messaged U to these intents: OOO U exite, for two years I have quivered at the thought of U, I want to worship U 4ever ... I went to the Old Louisvill Coffee Co Op tonight in a floral full dress of which women gave many glad-eye compliments  (fems who may look there for  a sissy unoperated, with 'the hot equippage between the leggs ;-)'-- they have a CoOp clothing give-away, and I got a pretty floral skirt and top-- freebies... several transwomen showed there @ 'Kink' meetup; yet to me a trans woman with 'receding hairline or bald is ugh not my lot with full hair. You indeed have been my uttermost excitement... I love to think of you, your freedoms, your erotic full power as womb-an O ILY... BE SURE TO GIVE MEN YOU MASSAGE A 'HAPPY ENDING' EVERY TIME

 I as cis-male will never-have ease in getting socials to warm with cis-women; but of late-- pursuant to what you wanted me to do-- put more fem love eggs 'in my basket' and not-knowing-but-earnestly-praying for your hot loves with cis-males-- I am dating women I do love. GeriM has for about 18 years been a sweet but 'taken' love with her lesbianism: now that I look dress and act so totally Ma'am she makes glad eyes and 'moves' toward me, of course abetted by her real gladness to talk with me about my becoming woman... We have another date at the OldLouisvilleCoffeeCoOp in just over a week (2024.7.26pm4). Her love for me is warming: as I promised to you, and you have never yet to my unfulfilled joy done, I shall (here, as paranoid to respect your desire to 'separate...find peace') thus NOT by easy direct-messaging despite how terribly hard the discipline of message-restraint-to-you-CERTAINLY-*IS*... Is it thinkable by me that you could enjoy my loves...