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 O My Earthquake! NancyMyNoneOther! The THOUGHT of you is high-octane, please believe that you have been fueling most of my inspirations and drives for now fully two years, a nothing-but-otherwise cluster of thoughts... Gestaltic of powerful conclusion for me-drive. This day is Sunday: this one day free to explore what you say is OK-- to put eggs in my love-basket besides YouWonderWoman. I shall go again to the 1st Unitarian Church, between here the Public  library and the coffee [queer] co-op--maybe the glad  eyeing women (mostly our age, mostly populating the venue) YET THERE ARE 'USUAL CONSTRAINTS'--I have NEVER had luck in 'getting' love; now as I am woman there seems a paradoxical effect in lots of women-- betimes to reject-me-out-of-hand, otherwise to stimulate a glad-eye warm-U-are-OK near 'icebreaking.' Still, I do not commonly get loved, and-- please acknowledge-- something happens for loves to terminate-- in general this is truism-- for me O LoveOutThe...

  BY NOW I KNOW YOU KNOW HOW TRUE THIS IS: I LOVE WHEN YOU LOVE MEN, ME-TRANSCEND

YHS  

 I have pleasures... With no substance but hopes and guesses,as now Friday night July19  I hope you as ever always get 'climactic' on Fri Sat Sun... makes me feel GREAT just the thought... In 'polyamory,' Love, you should know by now that cis-men (and especially trans-women as I am) usually have challenges in attracting what are crazily called 'dates'-- I think at the Old Louisville Coffee Co Op, I will get successful, with some hot glances and glad eyes that I am-- doubtlessly basally connected-- that I am Sissy. I am, I think, more physically attractive than ever prior-- as woman. GeriM definitely does a little more to make moves on me than 'straight' for an administrator in the Dean/Students office, but somehow her fondness to me is of a different kind of 'overture,' likely colored by a number of decades with now-remitted leukimia; she never quite got out of being ensconced Southern Baptist, probably has 'expectations' of me that diffe...

 Nancy, FriendFeltFancily! KNOW that offline , in scribbled writs, a rather doggerel verse such as the 'convicted' make in jailcells-rejected, know I say that off/on of frequence I have 'sung ' to you in tones that you were not intended to 'hear,' as my wounded inner-voice the instant stinging from this year March 13 (lesserly from April 16) about OneStunned who quivers at the thought of you, utterly by all scenery never to be now addressed -- a discomfort-- a 'peace-disturbance,' an annoyance... O Nancy I think we both know that I would feel utterly fulfilled to brim, needing no more than that we chat as 'pals' again. NOW the usual maniac in me, the motormouth, will convey, time to time, a note-from-the-notes of one ghost of Thine... I fear I fear over-other-wise communicating to you, albeit IFF you look these 'secret' blogged sentences to you-- of which I have only faint maybe hints time to time-- then MAYBE THERE WILL BE A SOMEDAY SOME...

 O My Thrill, NHz FluffyFlower Wildflower @ 9pm my time I text-messaged U to these intents: OOO U exite, for two years I have quivered at the thought of U, I want to worship U 4ever ... I went to the Old Louisvill Coffee Co Op tonight in a floral full dress of which women gave many glad-eye compliments  (fems who may look there for  a sissy unoperated, with 'the hot equippage between the leggs ;-)'-- they have a CoOp clothing give-away, and I got a pretty floral skirt and top-- freebies... several transwomen showed there @ 'Kink' meetup; yet to me a trans woman with 'receding hairline or bald is ugh not my lot with full hair. You indeed have been my uttermost excitement... I love to think of you, your freedoms, your erotic full power as womb-an O ILY... BE SURE TO GIVE MEN YOU MASSAGE A 'HAPPY ENDING' EVERY TIME

 I as cis-male will never-have ease in getting socials to warm with cis-women; but of late-- pursuant to what you wanted me to do-- put more fem love eggs 'in my basket' and not-knowing-but-earnestly-praying for your hot loves with cis-males-- I am dating women I do love. GeriM has for about 18 years been a sweet but 'taken' love with her lesbianism: now that I look dress and act so totally Ma'am she makes glad eyes and 'moves' toward me, of course abetted by her real gladness to talk with me about my becoming woman... We have another date at the OldLouisvilleCoffeeCoOp in just over a week (2024.7.26pm4). Her love for me is warming: as I promised to you, and you have never yet to my unfulfilled joy done, I shall (here, as paranoid to respect your desire to 'separate...find peace') thus NOT by easy direct-messaging despite how terribly hard the discipline of message-restraint-to-you-CERTAINLY-*IS*... Is it thinkable by me that you could enjoy my loves...

 Since 2024.3.13, then especially since 2024.4.16, it has been awful: at a level close to veneration of you, and with great incomprehension, on 'nothingness' of information, I have REALLY WITH DEFERENCE tried not to bother you, a 'Siren-challenge' because I soul-esteemed you as friend, a friend whose given two years of OK to me made me like chatting with you at the fundamental level: it is not the case at all that this liking had any 'agenda,' yes to the extent that my love for you would entirely be satisfied if we were 'phone buddies.' Loss. The-no-evident-reason-why silent treatment, which others told me is called ghosting, seems granite-hard real... To wit then, I have not phoned you from respect, have tried to keep my texts otherwise to you of the-lets-kiss-make-up sort, but the no-response so puzzling for me with no understanding just to me demands circumspection, if not a paranoia that for no guessable reason you hate or come so close to hate for m...

 I love this prospect so much that it is all I think about: you and Blak love I am 'Chambermaid' for Your Holy Conjunctions PornHub this very day FYI requires ID; go to your Web Security and choose VPN setting to Canada-- Canadian porn sites have generally very good quality interracial blak-white lovemaking-- do you not like the idea with yourself or with exciting partner? PLEASE CUCK ME, NANCY, WILL LUV DEVOTE TO YOU 4EVER IF YOU DO!!!

You know Flower Nancy-- I am forced mostly to guess about you, Beloved of two years full, from lousy tidbits deemed-furtively-gotten from the Web; the real presence of you, however, is the memory I was to have a-loving you those nigh two years. It would be so easy to be bitter .To me, in my spiriting process of soul about you, I want it to be that I am  not guessin g, I certainly do not want to be bitter. And in/at all events You NHz are gone  and the polite thing to do, given the way you dropped me, to show you respect by not doing that for which you severally did complain: I message you too much. Guilty as charged! In the way that I am dubious about messaging you by this/these blog(s), I do not feel as furtive in right-up-front-in-this-public "telling you my feelings" on some yes guess that the-word-does-not-get-back-to-you. Does it? Donno. At any rate, this is Wednesday, a day of week often and yes furthering dubious feeling, I chokingly message you. My goal so painful a g...

? Nancy Fancied by Men! I in Ecstasy and OneUnsolicited Txt IMAGINED Thy Luvs! NHz, perchance soon 2B a Mrs. or Ms to a colorful man, not me please: When you went to Belize March 2-10 I was naught but hopeful that you would multiply, in the works of the late Jimmy Hendrix "be Experienced" [dig-- and likely you got experienced, just please not for the first time ;-)] I have always loved it when my loves "fooled around"-- and maybe you did fool around-- but like my Ex and the Canadian girlfriend of 1968-1971 [Ellen [n`ee] Cail of Winnipeg, Nurse like Thee ;-)]as fooleraround did not tell me about what FUN it must have felt to look down copulating and see BlacknessInOutYou;  I of course have fondly wanted to be TOLD about the fooling so that I can REALLY FEEL You's doing the right thing and forgetting at least for  the time that I happy bliss  ever existed-- your message to this point in funning @Belize was specifically NO MESSAGES!!! OK! THEN TO BE GHOSTED! Goodby...

 HERE in this 'spot' and seemingly only here, I can tell Nancy Hunter zvolanek how much I love her, how much I like to suppose that I (with no entitlement whatsover, with great encouragement that she find loves not me) she is thrilled by Another; I know nothing of her doings or whereabouts, only by AI and other 'Instant- Checkmate-likes' on which I shall never ACT. The mere IDEA that Nancy finds pleasure but not with me DEEP DOWN welds me to that IDEA; for my empty part, dating is so much nothingness, women who want me to spend a lot of money on their joys, but get repulsed when I say ILY, or when I want a kiss. O Nancy you live in my fantasy in such a way: my real, almost my only joy is to think that you are being told ILY many many tmes, and that PLEASE YES your sex life is 'earthquaking with climax.'  [Do I still climax for you? Dare I say so? Yes I climax for you about once a week, and love the smell my loin/groin has when I have had an O for you; vicarious ...

   NANCY! NANCY! I AM TRYING UTMOST FOR YOU TO FEEL AT PEACE, FREE FROM ME, STILL JOYOUS THAT YOU ARE YOU, AND NOW FINDING LOVE WITH (MAN? BLAK-I-HOPE) OTHER THAN ME!!! I LOVE YOU THANK YOU SO MUCH

 Nancy Hunter zzzzzzzzvvvvv0000000lanek! FreedomDay today, in peace I hope: yes you wanted to separate to get peace as on 2024.4.16, and almost impossibly with many failures of strength I tried to cease  expressing love to you... in the extended ByeBye Horror after you quit responding to my you-messages on and after 2024.3.13 (three days after I pledged 100% cuckcold servitude to you for your panders-evident to Blax). Of some note/notice, I have hints-- perhaps good hints-- that you are GETTING LOVE... perhaps in a communal-love situation, suggestibly with one or more Blak men; When the Jiltress finds love, after I find her finding love, especially with a Blak man, I do-too get THE KIND OF PEACE FOR WHICH YOU ASPIRED ON 4.16 AND ONWARD... every single time that I find that a once-One-Only has found another-- especially a Blak-- I get "peace passing understanding down in my heart 💘😍👄"... I am especially especially happy iff you have been getting Blakt in a freeluv commune. ...

 It is pretty-crazy, Nancy Hunter z, for me to find solace in the fancy that actively you prefer the love of Blax, and not love me, my white stuff; you Luv know that fantasy, I have made no secret that I would like you to cuckold me in such a nice way. ...Mixing in that cuckolding way, Nancy, is a 'family tradition': when utterly against his will as an 'underground railroad' guy with farm on OhioR, across from Rising Sun Indiana (get my drift here), Red Jim Stephens my paternal greatgrandfather was drafted into the CONFEDERATE army early in the Civil War; his NANCY.Stephens (pretty, and looking a lot like you, O My NancyGone!) begat a set of 'very light skin' twins, Mandy and Sawny, fraternals whom I venerate. These AI sources seem prone to error: but indeed if you now romance one or many Black 'swags/studs' I am immensely, though with complexity, VERY HAPPY... Many a 'white' man now who loves a 'white' woman, of the proclivity which in F...